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A good night sleep or a bad nightmare? Of course I want a good night sleep. Yesterday night, I was in pain but I knew I still love someone so much and decided to take whatever to stay with him, even I have to give up things I have achieved here to come back and oppose what my parents wish me to do over here.
...I didn't have a chance to tell him that since I was in another pain when I heard what was coming out from his mouth. All I want to hear is that what he is doing right now is not for himself but for our future and I will do anything to make this relationship work. But too bad he committed that what he is doing for himself, for his own good. I don't blame his love for his mom. I am not jealous of his mom or his family, of course family is always prioritized. However, he's never thought I am part of his life,his future doesn't have me in there.

I would feel a little bit more respectful in relationship if my partner discussed with me what he wants to do and we will find out the solution together. But here, I am always the LAST one to know. He always makes his decision and then tells me and says as if he is asking for my opinion but I am sorry I don't feel that you are asking for my opinion. You are telling me just to let me know you will actually do it.


The weather today is just like what I am feeling inside: cold, windy, snowy, wet
... so then
Đường rộng và dài anh cứ bước đi,
Em đứng lại để nhìn anh quay gót
.......
Đường rộng một mình anh bước tiếp đi
Em không cần tội nghiệp đâu anh hỡi !

So ya, that's your future and I won't be an obstacle...I know you will move far forward and succeed.